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Saturday, February 08, 2003

<  Session 1270 (Private/Phone)  >

“Fear of Cats”

“It Is Significant that You Genuinely Identify your Preferences”

“Imagining Terrible Events”


Participants: Mary (Michael) and Letty (Castille).

Elias arrives at 9:15 AM. (Arrival time is 16 seconds.)

ELIAS: Good morning!

LETTY: Good morning, Elias! I almost said Castille! (Both laugh) I’m a little spacey, but we’re going to have fun today.

ELIAS: Very well!

LETTY: Before we get into my issues, my subjects, I have two questions. One is from a friend who wants to know why she hasn’t been able to sell her home in Houston, Texas.

ELIAS: This is associated with relocating and generating a new action, a new direction, and discontinuing with the familiar, which creates a hesitancy within her energy.

LETTY: So basically this is an imagery to her.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: What does she need to do to sell it – change her perception or just understand herself?

ELIAS: Pay attention to what she is actually doing and pay attention to the influence of her beliefs and what she is projecting outward in energy. For, this hesitancy that she is expressing is projecting an energy outward, which is also creating a hindrance in association with that movement.

Evaluate what the motivation is and what the GENUINE want is. The manner in which this is accomplished is to be paying attention to self and what is actually being expressed – not what she thinks she wants, but what she is doing and therefore what she is creating.

LETTY: I thank you very much.

ELIAS: You are welcome.

LETTY: I have one for Marta. He has been toying with the choosing aspect. His question was does our aspect always align with our desire? As an example that he’s trying to understand, he goes back to many, many years ago where he thought he wanted to go to Georgetown University, yet his choosing aspect chose something else, going to another university. He thought that it was a genuine desire.

So he’s trying to understand. His thoughts are so strong that he was led astray by not getting what he genuinely wanted. Maybe he aligned with our parents who didn’t have money to send him to Georgetown, who told him that it was too expensive, and therefore he accepted that alignment?

ELIAS: First of all, I shall respond to the initial question. Does the choosing aspect of yourself always align with your desire? Yes.

Now; what may generate confusion in association with that expression is the identification of your wants.

Now; you may in a particular time framework want to be creating a specific action, such as his want to be incorporating education at a particular school. But this is the reason that it is important to be genuinely paying attention to yourself and to pay attention to your expressed beliefs and the influence that they express in relation to your perception and what you choose, and being familiar with your preferences.

For, it is not uncommon to be expressing one want in relation to certain beliefs and another want in relation to other beliefs. One is being translated by your thought mechanism, for you are directing your attention objectively to it; the other may be equally as strong or stronger, and you may be concentrating upon that but not necessarily translating that into thought, for you are not necessarily paying attention to your beliefs and their influence and also your communications.

Now; in this example, an aspect of the attention is moved to the translation of thought, that the want is to be engaging a particular school.

Now; in not paying attention to all of the other communications and what is being chosen and merely paying attention to the thought translation, the other expressions are somewhat being ignored, and therefore actions are engaged which seem to be contrary to the want. They are not necessarily contrary to the genuine want, but may be contrary to the expressed want in association with the thought translation.

In this, another want is generated to be not creating conflict, which is influenced by beliefs associated with gratefulness, appreciation of family, some expressions of obligation. There are many beliefs which were in play in that time framework. Had Marta been paying attention to the communications and to the preferences in that time framework, there would have been a realization of the influence of beliefs and a clearer viewing of choices that may have been engaged.

Now; the choice that was engaged may have continued to have been engaged, but there would have been a clearer understanding and recognition of that choice as a choice and of what was motivating that choice.

But as to your desires inwardly, yes, your choices do follow your desire. Therefore, the desire was to be incorporating school. The choice of which school was not as significant; that is associated with a want.

LETTY: That makes a lot of sense. I thank you from him.

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

LETTY: Now, where do I start? (Laughs) First of all, I don’t know if perhaps Cindel asked you this morning but I still want to ask you. We were talking yesterday or the day before, and we were kind of close to each other because we were seeing something, when we felt like a swoosh. I interpreted it as an energy, and I almost felt my whole body go up and down almost like when I do my own shifting of energy. Was that you? (Pause)

ELIAS: A combination of energies – my energy and your energies.

LETTY: Oh, like the three of us?

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: To do what, other than we enjoyed it?

ELIAS: (Chuckles) To merely emphasize this action of paying attention.

LETTY: Whenever you are around, I know that’s what I need to go back to! (Both laugh) Yes, you are very helpful with my little reminders. (Elias chuckles)

I have a question. Why do I fear cats, Elias? It’s not even a matter of not liking them. I think I don’t like them because I fear them. There’s a look on the physical side, but I think there’s a little bit more that I was hoping you could help me with.

ELIAS: And your impression?

LETTY: They may scare me because they’re considered very independent animals. When you shoo a cat, it doesn’t go away necessarily. They repeat, and as I talk to you it gives me an impression of being Sumafi, in a way.

The fear, I think, is the independence that perhaps maybe I reflect with them. I observe them a lot when I’m in somebody’s home and they’re around. They have very different personalities and very human characteristics, the way I look at it. They get up on me, and yes, I’m scared of them scratching me. It really doesn’t hurt me, but it still scares me.

ELIAS: I may express to you, what you are presenting to yourself in this imagery incorporates more than one direction.

One direction associated with this particular creature is its unpredictability. Therefore, there is an element of fear generated within you in association with that unpredictability, that the creature may alter its expression in a moment without warning, so to speak, and also without provocation. As you view this creature, you recognize that they incorporate claws, small though they may be. They also implement action with their claws which may be hurtful, and this may be incorporated with no provocation; therefore, the example of the unpredictability of the behavior of the creature.

Now; in association with yourself, you incorporate a comfort in association with control and predictability. Therefore, this particular creature invokes an expression of fear within you.

Now; it is not necessarily the independence of the creature, but in a manner of speaking, its choices to be expressing affection or aloofness in moments that it chooses, regardless of how you may be interacting with it or not, which is another aspect of its unpredictability.

Now; this particular manifestation of creature reflects to you aspects of yourself that are familiar to you and that you also judge.

LETTY: Of myself?

ELIAS: Yes, that you incorporate more of a rigidness and much more of a comfort in the expression of predictability and control, but you also generate an association with those expressions that they are less than good. Rather than accepting that these are expressions that you prefer within YOUR expressions, you continue to force energy in association with them and generate judgment in relation to yourself. The feline reflects this to you in its expression of a lack of predictability and your association with that lack of predictability and control, that this shall be harmful within yourself – not necessarily in association with the creature, but within yourself.

LETTY: Wow. You just pointed out another very automatic expression of this judgment that I had not paid attention to very much objectively.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LETTY: That’s why I brought a cat into my creation very recently, then. I had forgotten about that, because I don’t even know that many cat people – for a reason! (Elias laughs)

I need to relax that, then, because objectively I do understand that it’s not a bad thing. But I hadn’t realized how much I was not accepting it.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: I was hoping you could help me in the clarity of the direction which I am moving toward. I am feeling a shift, and the shift goes back to even in my job, with Leezar.

I had a couple of tough days this week where I went back to holding the energy of what you just talked about – the lack of predictability and how much I wanted to control – and it was very tough for me. I recognized very objectively that I needed to release that and let go and just pay attention back to the now, the action of doing.

I do try to practice it, and then my automatic self goes back to that. But overall, I do acknowledge myself that I have accomplished. I need to continue practicing, because when I’m at that point I feel much more comfortable.

So going back to my question, did I answer my own question? Does it really matter where I’m going? But I still want you to help me.

ELIAS: It is a matter of genuinely recognizing your preferences, Castille. This is an extremely significant point. You have allowed yourself to move in a direction of examining and recognizing your beliefs and what you do, your choices, the influences of your perception. But now it is significant that you allow yourself to move into an expression of genuinely identifying your preferences.

As in the previous example, in recognizing that you incorporate a preference concerning predictability, you also identify that this is influenced by a belief, but it matters not. This allows you the acceptance within yourself of your beliefs and their association with your preferences. As you realize that expression, you also begin the automatic by-product of acceptance of differences within the expressions of other individuals, for you move your awareness into a genuine acceptance and recognition that there are no absolutes and that it genuinely matters not.

What matters is that you allow yourself permission to be expressing your preferences and generating your expression of comfort in that, but not incorporating a judgment in relation to other individuals and the differences that they express, and also not generating a judgment within yourself in justifying your preferences.

But this is much more challenging than it may initially appear. For individuals may think that they are aware of their preferences, but remember, all of your preferences are associated with beliefs also. They are beliefs that you prefer, and this influences actions and expressions that you prefer, which are in alignment with your opinion.

Recognizing what your preferences are may be more challenging than it initially appears, for this is a genuine expression of intimacy with self, the knowing of your preferences, the knowing of the influence of your beliefs, and also knowing that this is relative to you and not necessarily to any other individual. This is, in your terms, the genuine breakdown of absolutes.

LETTY: That’s what I call a big B for beliefs! (Elias laughs) I think I allow myself to create a lot of moments of solitude in which I try to – well, I go in all different directions and other attentions – I try to come back to concentrate on and to understand that genuine belief. Can I say, to an extent that within genuine communication, by paying attention to everything that happens, or the majority, I’m trying to balance myself out? I have been shifting – I still go one-sided sometimes – but I’m practicing to be able to really recognize that genuine thinking, that genuine want.

ELIAS: Correct, which is quite significant. For as I have stated many times, this is influencing of all that you do.

In this, as I have discussed with you previously, objective imagery is abstract. Therefore, for one direction that you may be engaging, you may incorporate thousands of different expressions of objective imagery.

In this, you inquire to me concerning your present direction. I am quite aware that within your energy expression your meaning of that question was much more black and white and much more associated with a physical course of action, so to speak, in relation to employment, in relation to your relationship in association with Leezar and your friendships – what direction are you moving in now?

What I am expressing to you in my response is that the direction of evaluating genuine preferences and dissolving the association with absolutes is tremendously influencing of all of your physical directions. Therefore, it is the direction, and you choose manifestations in many different expressions in association with that movement, be it in relation to individuals within your workplace, family members, friendships, or romantic relationships. They are all being influenced by this one movement.

For this allows you a clearer recognition of what you want in association with your preferences, and therefore also in association with your FREEDOM to express yourself in relation to any physical objective imagery that you present to yourself, knowing what YOU want and expressing the freedom to express yourself in those preferences.

LETTY: I think it’s challenging, balancing all of my communications without thinking too much. (Elias chuckles) I am quite aware of that, Elias!

ELIAS: You may be thinking as much as you choose or paying attention to your thinking as much as you choose. Merely recognize that your thinking is not preceding or creating your reality.

LETTY: As you know, I try practicing when I’m driving. It’s such an automatic action or expression that we do, and it gives me time to be with myself and pay attention to myself. You know me, I want everything objectively, to see it or feel it. I’m trying to practice paying attention to my thinking, but as a communication versus just thinking, of throwing everything out there.

I kind of even tried blanking out my mind, clearing my mind, and in clearing my mind, things do appear. I hear communication. But I feel like they’re coming overall, instead of me forcing and putting the note on the bulletin board, for example, instead of letting it appear, because that’s the communication I really want.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: Is that a good exercise?

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: Then I’ll continue. It feels good; it feels right. I’m trying to understand the difference between the translation and the actual thinking, where I really feel I force things.

ELIAS: I am understanding.

LETTY: All my life I’ve done something really silly. I really don’t think I judge myself; I kind of enjoy it because now I catch myself. I imagine really bad things happening to create a response from other individuals, from myself. Is that just a way of entertaining myself?

ELIAS: Let me express to you, Castille, this is not actually unusual. Many individuals generate very similar actions and incorporate their communication of imagination and translate those communications through thought, and in your terms, find themselves thinking of disastrous events and how those events shall be perceived by other individuals or how the individual themself would be engaging that event and what would you do – speculating, so to speak.

At times, individuals generate this type of action so vividly in a particular moment that they actually create probabilities of the event occurring, such as a train crash or an aircraft crash or a fire. In this, they may generate a probable reality in which that actually occurs, but not necessarily insert it into this reality. But the feeling that the individual may incorporate in the moment may be strong and overwhelming enough to even generate an expression of frightenedness in a moment, for they have expressed an energy strongly enough to create a probable occurrence and closely enough that there is a momentary recognition that the individual incorporated a very real potential of actually inserting that action into this reality.

Your automatic response to this, if you are generating that intensity of a response to your energy, is to immediately attempt to alter your thought process and move it into a different type of expression, almost as an action of counteraction – which is not necessary, but it is an automatic response, which is also associated with beliefs concerning thought and how it creates reality, which it does not.

But I may express to you, individuals incorporate this action, one, to be experimenting with abilities in creating probable realities; two, as an infusion of excitement in an extreme; three, at times in association with other individuals that may be generating this type of action and the individual may be connecting with another individual that is generating that type of energy. Another expression of this is associated with danger, which, in actuality, in a manner of speaking is testing your power.

LETTY: Wow. Very interesting. I think I had a few of those! I won’t judge myself anymore for doing such a bad thing! (Both laugh) The first thing I thought of was the duplicity part of it – “Oh, that’s a terrible thing to think about!” (Elias chuckles) Thank you. That was very interesting!

ELIAS: You are quite welcome.

LETTY: I’m glad I’m not the only one out there.

ELIAS: Not quite!

LETTY: I have a question about Leezar’s mother, Janet, who disengaged two weeks ago, and her connection to her older sister that disengaged two days before. Was it something that they kind of decided mutually? It was kind of a curiosity because one was unexpected and the other one was expected.

ELIAS: And associated with a particular bond that was expressed between these individuals.

LETTY: Is Janet in transition right now? (Pause)

ELIAS: No, not yet.

LETTY: I know she had a very difficult time within herself, causing a lot of trauma.

ELIAS: There continues to be an expression of objective creation, and in this, the action of transition has not been expressed yet.

LETTY: Is it because she has other focuses here?

ELIAS: No. This, in actuality, incorporates no bearing upon this type of action.

As I have stated previously, at times, dependent upon the individual and their choices at the time of their disengagement, an individual may disengage and continue to generate objective imagery in association with this physical dimension. This, many times, provides a type of comfort in an interim state, so to speak, not thrusting themselves into an expression of transition, which may be quite confusing.

Therefore, in your terms, for a time framework they may continue to be generating objective imagery which appears quite similar to what they generate within physical focus within your physical dimension, although there are differences. In a manner of speaking, eventually the individual recognizes that there are differences and that they are generating all of that imagery.

This creates a type of bridge between creating physical reality and not necessarily incorporating an objective awareness that they are creating all of their reality, and creating an individual reality which appears to be physical but is not actually, and the allowance of the self to move gently into a realization that they are and have been creating every moment of their reality in every aspect.

LETTY: I’m a little confused about her energy, then. They’re still part of our...?

ELIAS: No. This is a nonphysical expression. In a manner of speaking, this is associated with your beliefs concerning heaven and hell, this interim time framework in which an individual may continue to be generating objective imagery and believe temporarily that they are continuing within physical focus. But they are not, and their energy is not associated with Regional Area 1. It is associated with Regional Area 2, for it is not engaging transition yet.

The action of transition is the shedding of beliefs and the shedding of the objective awareness. But there must be a recognition of beliefs prior to its shedding and a recognition of self creating all of its reality.

LETTY: Very interesting. I’m going to inquire more on our website about this.

ELIAS: Very well.

LETTY: Before we leave, the last question is I created my nail issue again, where it’s separating. They were what I would term to be healing. I did have one of Marta’s Sunday sessions where I felt very alone. Was that my imagery? When I do that, I need to be with people or I distract myself with movies. I really did feel very alone, like a lacking, a longing.

ELIAS: Yes.

LETTY: I need to find another imagery, Elias. I wouldn’t want to have my nail fall off! (Elias laughs)

Okay, my dear friend! (Elias chuckles) You’ve given me a lot to think about, and continue to. I like your explanation of the cats. I think it will be very helpful to me to understand some issues that I have, my control issues and stuff like that.

ELIAS: I am understanding. In this also, let me express in association with your nail, allow yourself to interrupt your concentration upon it, and this shall be helpful also. (Chuckles)

LETTY: I thought that’s what I did when they were starting to heal.

ELIAS: Correct.

LETTY: So I did do it!

ELIAS: Yes!

LETTY: So I just need to do it again.

ELIAS: Very well. (Chuckles)

LETTY: A big hug to you!

ELIAS: And to you also, my friend.

LETTY: Thank you.

ELIAS: I express my affection to you as always, and anticipate our next meeting. To you in tremendous lovingness, Castille, au revoir.

LETTY: Au revoir, dear friend.

Elias departs at 10:07 AM.

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